i feel stupid, and small and pathetic. And I should leave him be, and I should let it go, but I can't. Because I keep clinging to the stupid thought that he was kidding. and he really does want me back. He probably doesn't. But maybe he does. I will do whatever it takes. I honestly would, because I've never felt like this before. I've never felt like I could honestly live with one person forever, and i've never felt so utterly, and completely confused when he's sudddenly not there. I have separation anxiety. I need him. It sounds stupid, but I really do. At least for now. ~Katja