i dont know what i feel, my sister is pissing me off but other then that i guess i am ok. today on the bus in the morning was awesome though because tisha wasnt there (not that that was a good thing i was just pointing it out) and so i sat with Ashley and Steven sat like right across from us and the whole time i was talking to Ashley he was staring at me and it made me happy because if he was looking at me then that means he was thinking about me at least for a little bit. well i am hoping at least. i dont want to let go of him. and thinking about letting go of him scares me. i dont know i just love the kid to death and nothing will change that. Ashley and Mindy are like "i know he misses you,he just needs more time" its been two weeks. ugh, i just dont like waiting (although i would wait for him forever)but its very heartbreaking. some people ask me why are u putting yourself through this but they dont understand that i would go through however much pain just as long as i knew that in the end i would be together with him, and some people say that you will get over him and move on and that makes me cry because i cant and i wont. idk i guess i am done complaining for one day, and guess what?!?!?!?!?! i get to go swimming tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOO i love swimming so much its not even funny if i could become a mermaid and live in water for the rest of my days i so would lol. idk i guess i am done complaining for one day lol