Send away for a priceless gift One not subtle, one not on the list Send away for a perfect world One not simply, so absurd In these times of doing what you're told You keep these feelings, no one knows What ever happened to the young man's heart Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45, Swimming through the ashes of another life No real reason to accept the way things have changed Staring down the barrel of a 45 Send a message to the unborn child Keep your eyes open for a while In a box high up on the shelf, left for you, no one else There's a piece of a puzzle known as life Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight What ever happened to the young man's heart Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45, Swimming through the ashes of another life No real reason to accept the way things have changed Staring down the barrel of a 45 Everyone's pointing their fingers Always condemning me And nobody knows what I believe I believe And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45, Swimming through the ashes of another life No real reason to accept the way things have changed Staring down the barrel of a 45 omg i dont feel good at all, i really hate this family sometimes i am hoping i can go to brians tommorow i dont want to be here while my stepdads brother is here oh yea i didnt mention his brother is coming i hate his brother he is worse then him i cant stand it i will leave if have too yea i only have a couple mins on the computer left because of my mom, my sister is supposed to be fucking grounded but no who cares she got bad grades but whatever, she just says she is grounded she rarely ever follows through with it, but only with my sisters, its like when i am grounded i am grounded thats it i get nothing but she gets to play video games go online go out watch t.v i am sick of it, if i do that when i am grounded i get grounded for longer but no not her but whatever i'll deal with it sorry i had to vent i really want to go to brians tommorow so i dont have to deal with any of them ok i am done