i just wanted to say that all my thoughts and hopes are with you charlie, you will pull through i know it and you will be the same old charlie! lol i love you ashley i am always here for you no matter what, he will pull through and anything you need i am here no matter what i love you hunnie ---- well today sucked. Dave if you are reading this then i want you to know that whatever decision you make i will support you, but i will miss you a lot, you shouldnt have to deal with that you dont deserve it, i am always here no matter what :) i love you my life isnt getting much better, it just keeps getting worse with every breath. i wish i could make things better for ashley and mindy and sarah and dave, they dont deserve to go through what there going through, i wish i could take on all there pain. i dont want them to go through this. i am going to go take some pills and just sleep the rest of today away i dont want to deal with whatever is coming. and i know much more is coming because my stepdad isnt home yet.