Ever since i was a little kid i have had this feeling that i am going to die before i get out of High School. It has never scared becuase i know where im going so ya... but it is weird so im writing letters to all of my good friends, to tell them not to miss me and stuff (if you are one of them... some of the letters are one here some are at my house in my journal on my book case) anyway... See but lately i have been thinking about it... in heaven do you get to hang out with your friends or do you only hang out with your Hubsand?? What if you don't get married then do you spend eternity alone?? You guys all think that im a totally Pyscho but, really it is such a weird feeling.. somtimes i don't like it becuase i would really like to go to college and swim and get a scholarship to BYU on swimming and stuff Also if i die before i get old that means that i had some type of illness that caused me to die, people don't just die of natural cause at High School age... That means that i was sick what if i get some horrible disease that i am in bed for like a year before i acually go?? AHAHAH Or maybe i don't go at all and i grow up and have a husband and family in a quite little suburb somewhere I like that ending more!!!