i lost. after so many wins she just had to swim that event this day. So many other things she could have swam. She picked my event. i cryed. what am i kidding i bawled. as i drop myself into the warm down pool i try to keep my composure. scotts there he askes if i had won. i start crying so i swim off, poor scott. i swim a couple of laps to stop crying. it don't work. i stop at the wall. chels is there. i start bawling again. she hugs me and comforts me. thank you. i need her. linds is behind her. they came to comfort. it worked. what can i do i lost there is nothing i could do about it it was over. i 'was' undifeeted(sp). not no more. i bawled, i needed. i dropped time. athough God didn't bless me with living he did bless me with a better time. i dropped one and a half seconds. 2:06.10. all i can do now is get better. 2:04. thats what im getting at Toole. in my heart i know that God had me lose for a purpose. maybe he wants me to stay humble i don't know but what ever it is im grateful for what he does for me anyways. i will live. this isn't the end i am going to come back from this. so what just beacuse i not undefeated doesn't mean im a failure even if i feel that way. i will just work harder. chelsea i love you and thank you. your little lies make me happy. -david today is the first day of the rest of you life -lots of poeple the only thing you have to do in life is die everything else is your choice.-Mr. Bingham in a perfect world there is no hurt. Agent Scully