whatever i am feeling that just totally explained it. I was trying to find the word that i felt. Nothing was really explaining how i felt. Have you ever thought maybe your t.v is really sending you subliminal messages. Thats why all of the sudden you start singing the tune of a advertisment you say yesterday. Or why all of the sudden you are like... oh i really want that pop i saw on t.v yesterday.. or this moring. That would be really weird... crazy. I went on a hike with my family this moring. It was a great hike. Andrew did a good job. Although he did complain. It wansn't as bad a usually. He wouldn't addmit it but i think he enjoyed it. He has been off pop for 1 week now. THat is amazing for him. Usually he drinks about (at least) a 6pack a day. The trail was so pretty. For those who have never done it. It is up the logan canyon. We took this trail that goes of for about a mile. Then you take this plateau around the edge of the cliff. It is about a 300 foot cliff. It was cool and refreshing. I carried the pack. It made it harder. But not be much. I hope that Amy decides that she wants to join the swim team again this year. It wont be the same without her. Please. I think i need to rip myself away from this thing. This is what i do all day. Sit on the computer and redo and redo my diary pictures and background. People are not as they appear. Agen Scully