I feel asleep... as though sleep has washed over my body... but i cant go to sleep i close my eye prepare my body for sleep it does not come no rest i am so tired i am exsuasted from swimming I tryed so hard to do the whole practice but failed i am a failure but don't pitty me i don't care so it is ok i will do it all tomarrow anyways... WOW i havent written anything in a VERY long time... so umm... there is a lot to talk about. First did i mention that i was tired i thought i had but i was just making sure. within the end to the start of the school year i am going to have lost TWO of my best friends. One to New Zealand the other to Oregon(sp). It may just be the sadest think of my life. I have never lost people to death or had anyone very close to me move before. I cant imagine how they feel though. I hope that they can make a whole bunch of new friends where they go. to them i will miss you!!