come and cuddle with me... love me like u always do... hold me kiss me do what u do.. what do u do i have no idea but yes you do it... that thing that thing where you make me go crazy... like put me in a home... yes im crazy... no insane... my love is insane... more than anything ever ever ever... you are my everything... you will help me through anything... like always... i love everyhting about you... i love your eyes and hair and your touch... everyhting about you.. i have been with you for four months today gosh its felt like forever... iknow my forever will be spent with you... with you.. i will have you always... you are my everything.. and i will be ur anything.. i will love you when no one else does... no matter what!!!... i love you you you.. only you... you are the only one the only one who will ever understand... do you understand... yes u do of course you understand because you are my one and only true love... forever... no matter what.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

heylo all.. i have 2 mins until bell rings so bye bye bye until tommorrow!! hheeeee!!heeeehheeeee!!! -eerleesha

hilo.. all.. what to write abt i have no clue... my baby is sick... i want him together... ohk hold up i need to vent ok this girl might i say she may be a whore... makes me so damn angry ok... shes on birth control right... shes 16 just turned 16 and she STOPS taking them so she can get pregnant... ohk who in there fucking right mind would want this to happen at 16 i mean dont get me wrong my mom had me when she was 17 but it was a mistake i dont think at that age you are mature enough to handle a decision like that so how can you make it... wow i really dont understand... well semester is almost over hopefully i come out with a "B" in math i have 2 a's and a b and a c now... hopefully that c will be a b i really need it.. christmas is in 11 days it doesnt seem like it... but yes it is... im staying after school today because i have to make nate's mom a purse for christmas! oh my geebus christ tho... her fabric is gorgeous she absolutely loves dogs and its doggy fabric.. also i have to take a fucking math test bujt i will live and hopefully my nater bater will get better! well im o-u-t-t-i-e!! -eerleesha

heylo all... whats up yes... a real entry well maybe... dusty is in here... he's ummm well i really dont know lol... this weekend is hopefully to be spent with my nater MASTERBATER! lol...tehehhee... yes im quite hyper... but then again im confused... but thays ok.. just means i have to find things out... i wanna see hide and seek... -ponders-wonder if its good! i love everybody!!! im o-u-t-t-i-e! ×eerleesha

NO ONE LEAVES ME COMMENTS RAWR!!! LOL!!! DOING PROJECT UPDATE LATER!!!

ohk ya i thought this word was funny because my mom says it about gay people lol... she is so closed minded because i absolutely love gay people! Ok anyways this weekend i hujng out with Nate ALL weekend every second of the weekend was spent with him which isnt at all a bad thing. his birthday was yesterday we had fun i fell asleep on him for about 2 1/2 hours so sweet i love him with every piece of me!!!!!!!!!tehhehheheheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!weeeeeeeeeeeeee i get to see nutter butter in 20 minutes! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!! ohk ya i am hyper!!! I have cookies and peonut butter fudge because my ashley baked it for me!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeee i heart u my ashWee!!!!!!!!! well im o-u-t-t-i-e!!!!!!!!! see ya'll tomorrow!!! -muah!!!!!!!! ×eerleesha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohk so heylo all.. ya i feel like shit.. rawr.. but hey ante wrote me a note and itn brightened my day he always knows how to do that wow how i love him... the bells gonna ring in like 10 minutes but oh well... umm today me and nate are going with danielle to get her tongue pierced.. fun i want mine done pretty bad... that would be fucking awesome! it would probably hurt like hell but thats fine no pleasure without pain... i have an oral fixation so this would be fucking awesome as i have said before...we are having "tiger tv!" they say that its really bad news! well i gotta go!!! bye bye!! -eerleesha!

hello whoever. its 346 am. i just need someone. anyone. i dont know what to say. i dont know if i am allowed to feel. am i allowed to feel? i love you. do you love me? it is so scary to think that each and everyday. to share. i hurt. but i need to be strong. if not who will be? should i turn my head. should i leave? where would i go? to my moms? no. to the streets? maybe. maybe my heart wouldnt hurt near as bad. who knows? this is all i have ever known. this is all i have ever wanted to know. to share. i dont understand? does anyone really ever understand? can you ever know a person as much as you think you do? or no? is it all an illusion? who knows? i just want to be happy. i mean i am happy. arent i? moving so far away. feeling so alone. i am not alone. or am i? i feel alone? i love you. i know. do u love me? i dont know?

Well hi everyone its been awhile i guess i havent really felt up to updating. For all of you who do not know i am having a boy his name is gabriel anthony levi martin btw ithelost is the father. i think we will have a really pretty baby we were both pretty chubby hahah but i grew out of it what happened to you nathan? hahah... im funny. i am due march 12, 2006. i am starting to show its funny because people that i do not know come up and fell on my tummy and i am like go the fuck away bitches... haha im not hormonal... all the time right.... NATHAN WILL BE HOME SOMETIME NEXT WEEK. woot i need some good lovin its been almost 2 months since i have seen him wow. i cant wait.. he cant wait. thanksgiving is soon i love food especially the desserts oh so yummy. i have so much candy... im gonna gain 500 pounds hahha ya im funny bye guys... please comment me more!

the world doesnt know what its like to be a teen mom. 1st i get looked down on because i am pregnant then i tell the world i want an adoption because its to late to have an abortion but thats the wrong thing to do to. what the fuck no one understands. no one understands that all i want to do i s finish high school go to college get a job have money and a house then raise kids i dont want to raise a kid now not with all the shot im going through not with me being as bipolar as i am i am way to immature for this i will prob forget to feed it for 2 weeks because im to worried about myself but yea no one looks at it that way. i hate being pregnant it hurts ur fat yea theres nothing good about it. oh and nate oh hes a happy little camper everything is fine and dandy with him because hes thousands of miles away and doesnt have to deal with the things that i have to. and then he gets mad when i complain. am i such a rotten person for wanting MY kid to have a better likfe to have a mom who cares who has money who will give it the best life it can have? am i? why do i always have to please everyone else and not myself it soesnt matter does it? bye everyone enjoy being kids its over for me! i am about to leave and go to dazmons candlelight vigil and fell even worse. i miss him. -alisha

Today when i got to school everyone was upset and crying and of course i am wondering why. Well to find out one of our star athletes was shot last night and died almost instantly. I can barely bring myself to say that. Its hard to believe he was such an awesome person a person you expected to see everyday. One of my really great friends santressa was really tore up. I have never seen anyone as upset as i saw her and i was taking care of her. It hurt the most knowing how it affected everyone is such a way. Everything was quiet extremely quiet. I am really mixed emotioned right now because i am extremely upset about him but i am also extremly happy my baby brother was born yesterday morning around 6:50 hes so pretty i would put a pic up but dont know how lol. I love him. He will be an uncle in 5 months i think that is pretty funny. I am also really upset because i am not handling nathan being gone very well. I have barely slept since he left and it hurts not being there to be there for each other ya know. He will be home soon. The baby and I need him very much! Goodbye everyone! You will always be in our hearts my dear D.A. R.I.P. Dazmon Anderson D.A. -alisha

IM HAVING A BABY. ya its finally hit me its for real im happy thats all i can say. deal with it everyone else.

I CAN NOT WAIT UNTIL WEDNESDAY AUGUST 3RD!!!! Nate and I are going to warped tour!! Then i am going to this thingy and I am going to see one of the greatest people in the whole entire world NIK!!!! I HEART HIM SO SO SO MUCHES!!!! Then school starts so yes the next freaking two weeks are going to rock something great. OH ya did i mention nate and I are staying with my best friend alex!!! ×WHATEVER HAPPENS IN ATL STAYS IN ATL× :) Yes i know im funny. I miss everyone from school but i will see them soon. SOMEONE help me with my impatientness i really need the 2nd to be tommorrow!!! hehehe righttttt... alisha... OMG im getting a schoolgirl skirt im sure you all wanted to know well goodbye for now!!!

here it is 4:56 in the damn morning and i havent slept a wink... not even once.. i hate being an insomniac and all i want to do is sleep but i guess the sheep are broken... all i can do is vent right now about all the bad things in life nad maybe some happier ones in a while.... well i havent heard from my dad in a while... one of my really good friends uncle hung his self in jail... i miss everyone from school (jenny, chelsea, ashwee... etc...,) no one reads or comments on my diary anymore... AND MOST OF ALL I WANT TO SLEEP... CURL UP INTO A BALL... AND SLEEP... i called nates house 10 minutes ago and his mom answered so i hung up damn me i need someone o talk to but everyone is damn smart and are sleeping.... i have sucha busy day to start in a few hours but sleep is so far away... happy things nate and i great... he loves me hehe... oh yea another bad thing my best friend in the whole entire world lives in atlanta but i will see her soon... i miss her voice and her everyting we are so much alike its funny.... I MISS YOU MY ALEX! what else hmmm... im going to warped tour anyone who wants to go... call nate or i and give a little towards gas money and pays for their tickets can join us:) thats also a good thing... we are debating between ozzfest and warped tour i think i want warped tour but whatever....well i guess thats all! xoxo ×eerleesha×

I FEEL CHEESY!!!!!!!! hi all once again i am sitting here with the love of my life!!!!!! and watching american idol. IF BO DOESNT WIN I WILL DIE!!!!!!! BO WIN BO WIN!!!!!!!! hehe nothing much but i got a somewhat job and i love it.... i babysit my 2 little cousins who are 15 months and 3 years... the little one is a sweetheart but the other is a spoiled brat but ill live.... nate cant come over while shes over because she is afraid of him... she told me when she gets bigger she will play with nat... it was so cute.... they are drawing ai out and they need to hurry up and tell me bo won.... hehhehehehe i m in love and its not you NATE!!!!!!!! heehehhe just kidding nate knows damn well i love him with all my heart and always will and i know he feels the same way... SUMMERS here... so i have the whole summer to be with nate, sleep, and babysit!!!!! YAYYYYY!!! well im outtie! ×eerleesha×

hi all....................... back but not for long im just sitting here watching law and order svu.... im bored... honers night tomorrow... gahhh......... i need comments this weekend should be fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! every1 leave comments longer update later much love lovelys!

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my life is upsidedown i dont know what is going on that would be why i havent updated in a while but anyways im back... so one of my best friends ever was in a wreck but hes ok but the girl that was with him which is one of my aquantances(sp?) shes not so good shes in the hospital... but anyways everything been suitable i guess u could sayh except for the fact of petty arguments i hate them so much..... rawr.... well i gotta go! ×eer×lee×sha×