well ya its like 1:17 and im talking to nate on the phone... we went to the rodeo tonight it was fun... fun indeed... except for all the rednecks... lilly, jenny, dusin, danielle, and a lot of ppl were there... me and nate and dalielle "escaped," we like went and sat where the bathrooms are... we talked and stuff it was fun... ahh nate... the way he treats me feel is undescribable.. hes something awesome... -rawr- so much is going on and he relieves everything.. he makes me forget about everything!!! im really confused tho because im not quite sure that i know what its like to be loved because i've never really had love from a family member, close relationships, etc.. my friends they show me love... but with my whole trust issue thing and all i dont know! my life at this point is so damn confusing.. but ill get through.. ya i saw my dad tonight he was with some methed up person.. he looked so bad... that makes me so sad... ladida i think im going to go to bed soon... ah.. but im kinda hyper -heh- latida bye!