i feel like abusing myself... i feel abused... i feel everything mixed into one. nathan i love you. i do... even though i treat u like i dont sometimes. i do. i promise. with every breath i take. i love you. a lot is going on. everything is coming back. im sorry from the bottom of my heart and from the bottom of my soul i love you. you are the only one keeping me sane... even though i act insane. you are my only one... i love you more than anything and im sorry for my depression and all the pain i bring to you... i love you.. i dont know how to tell you im sorry but i am... a lot. a lot a lot... ohk today i did nothing i didnt go to school and we dont have school tomorrow.. i didnt go to school today because i really didnt feel good i felt as if my whole body was bruised emotionally and physically... i was all emotionly abused because i was mean to my love last night and it hurt me... i didnt mean it... and i regret it.. also my life is going back to what it was in like 7th grade but i can handle it... maybe hopefully... im outtie... -muahness ×eerleesha