not enough.. not enough to make my family happy. im not what they want me 2 be. i love them why cant they see that. ive came to my conclusion i now know what love is... or think i know anyways. ya i love nate hes fucking awesome... im happy kinda because my sam hearts me hehe.. i feel useless because whatever i do for anyone is never enough.. they always want more i cant always give more.. i try my hardest.. i do.. why cant u see this.. get it through ur sick demented little minds. why did u abandon me... how could u love me for 14 years and then disappear on me... i hate u... or do i love u... i dont know what to think anymore... get out of my life... you cant come back in im done with u.. trying to be all that u can be when in reality you are nothing.. nothing but a methed up fag. u care about nothing but ur meth and your money and your damn whores. im tired of this. werent you supposed to call me like 30 minutes ago.. but i screwed my life over got my hopes up again and you sent them crashing. leaving me on the floor where you left.. you want to pick me up but you will just do it again... im done with this im gone im not here.. ill never be whole again bye.