im sick... sick in the head.. everything i have i dont want because i am screwed up in so many ways than one... i often sit and ponder do i want you to love me the way i love you... or so i not need that??? maybe i do maybe i dont... i love you thats true and always will be... but i cant get it through my very very sick head... my brain is screwed as am i... i dont deserve you... yes indeed i need you but i do not want you... i dont want to put you through what you have to go through to be with me... i never want you to hurt like i hurt or feel the pain that i feel and have felt in the past... i want you but you need more... you need to feel perfect... and in love... love that i am unable to give.. -eerleesha