the world doesnt know what its like to be a teen mom. 1st i get looked down on because i am pregnant then i tell the world i want an adoption because its to late to have an abortion but thats the wrong thing to do to. what the fuck no one understands. no one understands that all i want to do i s finish high school go to college get a job have money and a house then raise kids i dont want to raise a kid now not with all the shot im going through not with me being as bipolar as i am i am way to immature for this i will prob forget to feed it for 2 weeks because im to worried about myself but yea no one looks at it that way. i hate being pregnant it hurts ur fat yea theres nothing good about it. oh and nate oh hes a happy little camper everything is fine and dandy with him because hes thousands of miles away and doesnt have to deal with the things that i have to. and then he gets mad when i complain. am i such a rotten person for wanting MY kid to have a better likfe to have a mom who cares who has money who will give it the best life it can have? am i? why do i always have to please everyone else and not myself it soesnt matter does it? bye everyone enjoy being kids its over for me! i am about to leave and go to dazmons candlelight vigil and fell even worse. i miss him. -alisha