I had a breakdown this afternoon one min I was laughing and then the next crying . I havent been sleeping well latley .And I started freaking out at Krissy . I feel so bad. Im not to sure whats wrong with me . I think it might be because I havent talked to my dad for at least a month now and Im thinking if he doesnt talk to me that obviously means he doesnt want to talk to me . He hasnt paid his child support for over two months and now maitnence can file a country wide warrent if he doesnt pay it soon. Somtimes I like to think aboutwhat it would be like if I had a father who was thier for me when I needed him. My stepdad is an idiot who is fat ,lazy and as stupid as it gets. I hate him (I think he hates me too). I really do hope I dont grow up to be like my mom shes so emotional and she thinks everyones against her. Some times I think shes crazy ( somtimes I think Im crazy ) ooh well. ANTI-BART (we all hate him)