If I could sleep all day I most certainly would ... but I can't I have to be at work in an hour and a half. I get to walk though . so I think of it as a joyous occation ! I cannot wait for August to end and I feel so bad saying that because I love summer so ...but I just don't anymore.
Yes I know money is wonderful but it is only wonderful when you have time to spend it.
I am so exhausted and angry and sad .
Drifting drifting drifting....
So afraid of losing people ... so afraid .
Why am I so committed to my friends?
Because they are the only family I've got?
but
I dont think they understand that .
Now my friends are the people i work with and they dont even know it . STUPID FUCKING SUMMER TAKING PEOPLE !!! FINE! I"LL SHOW YOU!!
" and so we disconnect the lights go out around us, its called the life effect"
I miss this.....
so much .
because you love us and we love you and .. i love you.. like, me. I love you as a single person. IIII love you