Today was just no good not at all I felt ill and gross. Although I had a good long laugh in social with Nathen that was probably the very best part of my day! I also talked to my Jen who I have increasingly drifted from latley and I miss her sooooo much!!! Im feeling so many different things right now and its complicated I feel unloved but I suppose its selfish of me to feel that way. I also realized I trust few people completely in my life . And the people I do trust are the people who have been there forever. You know what I hate? I hate it when people talk about you and you know they are talking about you but its not like you can do anything about it. I hate how there are people who do not like me even though I have done nothing to them. I cannot think of anything else that happened today that I accually liked so maybe I will leave it at that because I dont wanna go emo on you ppl! 1.somtimes you can be so cold and it makes me feel so small and insignificant. 2.I guess you not as good an actor as I 3. I still miss you .... and ya'll Love ya'll MWACHA! I've got soul but Im not a soldier!