So today was alright. I saw Troy and is he the sex or what? ( you don't need to answer that , because I will not take no for an answer).I've been feeling a little odd latley.. not myself like Im holding back some part of me . I know you people may not see it but I sure do. Everytime I look in the mirror I have to take a secound look and make sure its me. It is, eventually I see the resembelance... I hate losing myself. Its almost as bad as losing someone else. But losing others is by far the worst feeling in the world , I hate letting people go... thats probably one of the reasons I cannot commit to people...is because once you get involved they eventually fade . I HATE THAT