i enjoy saying befuddled. say it right now. befuddled. reminds me of that hunter off of cartoons called elmer fudd. he was somewhat befuddled, and of course there's the fudd does our third eye have a lid. both of our eye's blink to retain moissture and protect from disease so does our third eye need to blink. hypothetically thinking maybe it needs to blink to recreate creative juices, and to protect from idiotic ideas. sometimes i think the goal of god ( when i say god i actually mean a collection of things, religion, politics, television, media, parents whatever changes your innitial being) is to staple our third eyelid to our toes. nothing like walking on the only way to truely see to keep the killers happy ( killers and god will be switched around frequently. i clicked random on this sight. the first thing i noticed is that everyone is 14 to 16, i clicked the random button one hundred and thirty four times and only once did i find a person who wasn't fourteen fifteen or sixteen, and they were seventeen. this must have some purpose, maybe that teens are the only one's who feel a need to express there emotions on the internet in a diary format. who knows and who really cares...so someone will do a study .............................impeach god .............................abort christ .............................i fuck sheep .............................and love knowing women are better kurt cobain wrote that in one of his journals and i fell madly in love with it. if a christian god is said to be all powerful and running everything it is fucking up so let's kick it out, if christ cares so much about life and how we use it shouldn't he be excited that we kill things before they sin, the sheep thing is just to show differences can be varried, but my absolute favoite is the final one. because i think it's a complete line of shit. which shocks people who know me they would think it's my favoritet because i normally say taht women tend to be more intelligent/emotional concret/nice (for lack of a better word it is one o'clock after all) but the truth is as long as people are still saying one group is over the other they're still wrong. the reason people say women are better then men is because they get the belief they are less violent or judgemental or what have you, but if they go around saying women are better they're just saying men are worse and putting down a groupf people who can produce great things is exactly what is wrong. so i say no group is better, individuals are better, which is why the idea of senses is a horrible horrible concept, if we couldn't hear smell taste see or feel others i personally think we would have either died off a long long time ago or would be much better off. actually taht's kind of a way to reiterate myself, what have we done that's so great...watch a show with sound then watch it on mute... its very very ver different, u see thing's u never before noticed. Ayn Rand is a great author, Atlas Shrugged is one of those books that will forever change my perspective on things once thought trivial. what a cliche. but the truth is at times a cliche. objectivism is a wonderful philosophy and one i plan on researching continually throughout the years. but most of all i'll keep wondering Who Is John Galt? people all over our country are enraged of a breast on life television, so sex wins out over violence. we would rather see large burly men run into one another at high speeds only to catch a small rubber ball and move it a few yards then a breast. sex is pleasurablefor both parties (if done correctly of course) and is wholesome and good (if done correctly of course) violence tends to be horrid for both parties, and is evil and usually wrong. i still like the saying "pain is simply a violent pleasure" i dont really comprehend it though, not how the original author wanted me to, at least i don't think i do. i like to make small incisions in the chest of babies and fuck the incision until the baby dies. if someone said that to you how would u respond, it has violence and pleasure...please stop me as i go to sleep tonight there are many things that i will be wondering, so many many countless ideas and objections to those ideas, but the largest one is for ever person who read this who actually said befuddled, and how many said it exactly when they read the word after i told them to say it, im not saying ur sheep for doing it im just curious how many people did it. then i'd like to know how many did both in there head how many did out loud, just how many. what i would do with such knowledge i do not know but it would make me happy. sometimes i wonder if im only happy when i have things i cannot possibly have, maybe it's the idea that i will not have it that makes me think i will enjoy it, buit it only appears to be effective when considering knowledge like facts and things of that sort, but not physical things, like women, or friends or drugs if u will...my lungs should empty while i sleep, dieing peacefully in my bed with no medical reason, i think i would kill myself but i dont want to hurt anyone but me, and my death would bring misery and hate to my family and friends. i never understood a fear of death, people feign from it all the time they do things unnatural to the extreme to avoid it... but i'd just like to take a number, and sit patiently in the waiting room until it's my turn, maybe this is just one big freaking waiting room and we all lost our number.....