i seem to forget about this diary from time to time. i enjoy going through others, like strolling through the memomries of a thousand dead children. unfortunately i realize that most of them are middleclass white kids with piss poor families. have i cut in my lifetime? yes, yes i have taken razors and split my skin. ya kno why i dont talk about it in diaries? BECUZ ITS PRIVATE AND EMOTIONAL. if you feel some uncontrollable urge to express things like that you are what the populus refer to as "fake". we tend not to enter with things like "yes i sat upon the toilet and took a dump" why u may ask? because we do these things in private, if you cut seek professional help, not these insideous "Help Diaries" that end up plastering disbelief and unhelpful strategies. that was my rant for the day, a couple days ago it was about the conservatives and their evils. tomorrow, who knows i got a few comments with congratulations towards me making a police officer wet himself. although i was originially flattered i soon realized that these people would in fact be out doing the same thing as i was. people are cowards. i met a boy who i use like a toy oh please everyone tell me im a wonderful poet please i mean i think i suck but PLEASE anonymous people cheer me up with your words of unnatural wisdom...this is me ranting again, people who post poetry on the sole purpose of compliments. i have posted poems yes, although when i do i dont start with "omg im such a l0ser please wont someone end my misery and i SUCK at these poems...but people say im good so leave a comment if u can) idiots...natural selection should end these people and the possibility of them breeding. ever if you hate your life end it, at some point we have to seperate the depressive from the suicidal, the best way to do this is for the truely suicidal to kill themselves. sure more people will die, and we'll only save a few, but at least then we can put the attention on the people who are truely in danger and not those who feel that becuz daddy is in jail for six months, i can't afford new jeans, and a boy called me ugly they deserve the attention of hundreds of people, preferrably people with large checking accounts. religious people fuck off im tired, im going to calm down by fucking a boy, why?? becuz im bisexual, im not gay nor straight, i am bi. and if you worry about gay people then fuck you to, u can join the religious...oh wait thats right, they tend to coincide.