It’s been ten days sine the last time I wrote on here. Ten days since I last had a good nights sleep. Ten days since I had a clear conscience. But ten days is not that long, but it seems like it was months ago. The days flew by me so fast, yet so slow, and sometimes I wonder what part of those days I am really paying attention to. I'm not achieving my size three. I keep going up, along with my bust size. Some girls would rejoice at that accomplishment, but I know better. The bigger the bust the bigger the waist. Oh well. I swear, they make holidays like Easter and Halloween just so that people will get fat and have to buy their slimming concoctions like Slim Fast or an exercise thing. It’s spring. I love spring. It’s my second favorite season; summer is my favorite because of the heat. But spring is wonderful. It becomes warm and everything grows, and you can wear skirts and dresses comfortably. No body knows it, but I am a complete sunshine girl. I love the sundresses and long flowing skirts. Black is my favorite, but I’ll wear white, and sometimes little flower designs. I love them, but I can’t bring myself to wear them. I don't know why. It’s like, they are mine, and only I can see them. I’ll wear the black ones. I'm making a black one right now. But I think that if people were to see me in a long flowing flower patterned dress, they would faint. How could their resident Ice Princess wear flowers? Something pretty and beautiful, unlike her. So lets see what's going on with the ‘family’ shall we? Mother – is as always, uncaring and unknowing how her words cut worse than my blade. Beast – the ever present figure that in my life that makes me want to cut as much as mothers words. Krishna – still Mothers favorite son, and only person to save her form this emotional wreck she’s flung us into. He can save us all, the one who knows where to go in life. Justin – moved out because he and his dad (Beast) had a fight a couple of times, so he takes his rats with him when he cant be at his moms. So he comes back and forth between the two houses, ripping apart my sanity each time he returns. Why? Why oh why does he get the luxury of having a mother and a father. Two homes and money from both parents, a girlfriend and a job. I juts don't understand how he can get it so easy. Nothing barely ever goes wrong with him, without substantial reason. Natasha – always the bitch I want to murder, to pull out her hair five strands at a time. Alexis – still the little child in the family who stomps and screams (like Natasha) to get her way. She’s the one to be screwed up the most in the house. Poor dear......or not. Me – still the depressed, fat loser who needs to wake up and realize that coffee isn’t gonna do it. I need something fresh, Bold and new to keep me entertained. I want a new piercing. I want my nipple, or my eyebrow, or something pierced, anything! But alas, I'm stuck with this stupid woman who wont do anything to make me happy, maybe ill do it myself...... hmmmmmm.