I’m going to try and go on here more often. It’s a nice way to vent and let everyone know what’s going on without the confrontation. I'm no good with confrontations. I loose the ability to make fluid sentences and sound articulate. And then I feel foolish, which brings my self-esteem down and its one big viscous cycle. I woke today at 2 pm. I'm so mad; I wanted to wake up earlier. I’ll have to set my alarm and actually get up for it. I would like to learn to meditate, that way if I don’t have a bed I can still let my body rest. I may look into that. I think it would neat to go and live in Tibet with monks and learn their ways. I just don’t know if I could handle the praying. There are so many things that I want to do. Like life adventure things and just simple everyday things. I want to travel all over, backpack here and there, and go back to Italy! And I also want to clean my room. Start to unload all my childish things I don’t use, things of innocence I try to hold onto. I’d like to start getting things ready to move out. Start buying dishes and linens and the like. Bathroom things and other little things we who live at home take advantage of. I would like a camera, digital and video. I just bought an MP3 player, so I should be able to get rid of a bunch of my old c.d.’s and what not. I also need to go through my clothes and finally get rid of things I don’t wear. I hate how I keep things, and it’s mostly so I don’t hurt other people’s feelings. Like the shirt and sweater my Grandma bought me. They are so ugly yet I keep them. I'm talking to this guy on MSN. He is from Ipsos. I don’t really like him yet he would like to get together some time. I don’t really want to. He says that if we were to go do something I would have to wear something sexy. Nice buddy. I do hope you don’t wonder why you have no girlfriend. I almost pity you now, too. Maybe, just maybe I can tell him I have a boyfriend already. Or that I am seeing someone! O that would be wonderful. Now who would this man be? Anyway. I'm going to try and do something about my room, I have to find a way to get my clothes somehow organized, they create the biggest problem. I have drawers that are full, but I don’t like using them anyways. Ha-ha. Then I have to go to work, at Speros this time. *sigh*