today was a lot better than yesterday. i feel good, although the feeling of uneasiness is still with me. blah. i bought two pair of shoes today. i'm happy about it. it always seems to make my day a little more whenever i go out not planning to shop, with no money on me and i come home with something. my mom is awesome and the sweetest woman in the world. she would definitely spoil me if she could. we went to see Kristen at DQ where she works and this woman was acting crazy. she went off over two dollars to the point that they were going to call the police if she didn't leave. she left but went and sat in her van and stared at them for a while. seriously, come on. oh, and i have to note this. today was the first time in my life that i ever ate a hotdog with a weenie on it. it was good, but i think i'll stick with the chili buns. Hank, my cousins pug, slept with me last night. he's so sweet. he likes laying super close and it's funny because if you move, he moves with you. we watched Pride and Prejudice today. i love the story, but the movie isn't as awesome as i expected it to be. Kristens going crazy in her sleep again. i wonder what she's dreaming of and who she is talking to? i'm going to ask her tomorrow. i don't understand why some people wouldn't talk to me at all whenever i was with Chris because they claimed to know that i was serious and in love with him and that it would be disrespectul of them...yet since we've broken up (the day of) they have pretty much bombarded me. isn't it pretty obvious that if i loved someone, i'm not going to get over it that quickly, and i'm definitely not going to consider jumping into another relationship anytime soon? it bothers me and gets on my nerves. it's like i can't be friends with anyone without them coming up to me one day or messaging me or giving me a call to have the dreaded talk..."i have feelings for you, let's try this". i'm not being mean, and if i come across like i am then i hate that. i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or cause upset, but common sense tells you that's what you're setting yourself up for if you pursue something with me right now. that would be like Chris getting into a relationship with someone from here when he's going back to Stafford in less than two months...pointless. not to mention it would cause very much unnecessary hurt. and it would just be something else to deal with and someone else to add to your past mistakes. i may write more later on, i'm not sure yet. i have a feeling i'll be awake for quite a while so maybe... if not then i'll definitely write about my day tomorrow scatting around Nitro in search of every antique store in the city. Kristen works so it's off antiquing with my mom, great aunt and Kristen's mom. hope it's fun :).