i've been feeling a lot like i've left sitdiary out in the cold and abandoned taking time to write. i miss it. i miss everyone on here. hopefully i'll be able to get back into the swing of things and begin updating regularly like before. i've been so busy though. my summer has been amazing. i am dating someone now. i have a job. i'm going back to school...it seems to me that things can't get better. i know they can though. i'm sure they can get worse too, but for right now this moment is awesome and life is good. :) i started to think about my life and what i wanted and i wasn't doing it and i didn't have it. i know i'm the only person who can make a change, and that's exactly what i have been doing. i'm so happy. i feel good. my ambition and determination is pretty much unstoppable.. i have my sights set high. the best part is that i can totally attain all of my goals and reach them if i keep up my persistence and dedication. and i don't plan on going on hiatus anytime soon. i am certain a small part of it all has been a result of the relationship i'm in. he lifts me up and encourages me and motivates me. we talk about things and i get excited about life and about my future. he is a man of God and one of the most committed people i have ever known. he is entirely devoted to any endeavor he attempts...and i want to be that way too. i truly respect him and think so highly of him. he makes me feel so good about myself and he pushes me forward. i guess i have never had this before, it's foreign to me. i love it :) i just got home from the doctor not too long ago. my kidneys are crazy. i have suffered with bladder infections for a few years now and they are horrible. she gave me some super strong antibiotics so hopefully it should clear things up and take care of everything. i hate going to the doctor more than anything. especially sitting and waiting forever for the doctor to come in. it sucks. thank God for magazines. i'm so excited for fall. i think i've decided that october is my favorite month. i love it! football season makes me happy. i still can't believe it's almost august. this year has flown by already. it's crazy. sometime soon lance (the guy i'm dating) and i are going to take a road trip and find a crate and barrel. i know there are a couple in ohio and pennsylvania so we'll probably hit one of those. i can't wait. ashton mckenna is here so it's time to go take pictures of her eating corn on the cob. it's everywhere. i love sitdiary, i'm glad to be back :)