Alot of things are going on right now... i am losing the internet, no surprise there. I mean i got in to a big fight with my mom the other day, and i said some pretty bad things, i do regret them now... but i couldn't help it... i have to deal with so much it seems... i shouldn't be forced to have to deal with life like this, having to worry about so much. Alot more than people think... most of it is financal. i am going to have to get another job to pick up some slack. My old job cut my hours and i can't pay everything like i want...I probably shouldn't even be wasting gas money like i do... but i just want to feel like normal, that i'm not confined to money, but it seems that money runs life, i hate being a slave to it. The typical teenage existance huh? I just dont know, i wish some many things were different in this world, but dont we all. I just want to escape... I'm happy on another part because Ashley and i have been dating for a month now. I was so surprised to relieze that. I mean time does fly, and i can honestly say i haven't been any happier than i have in that month. I can remember when we first met. so many things have changed since that day. Sometimes i just sit and watch everything just play back in my head. No regrets..., i care about her so much. I just watch her ... she has something i dont and thats why i think i'm so drawn to her. She completes me in some way,... i'm glad shes by my side. We might go see The exorcist of Emily Rose sunday. That movie looks sweet, i can't wait.