so its christmas and well i knew that it wouldnt be any different from the last oh 4 or so well as every holiday since then. me and rob(my father) got in a yelling fight again. like every holiday i left with him yelling at me from the door way and me hating him. I honestly dont think we can get threw any holiday ever together. I dk why i thought that maybe just maybe this one could be different... life is like a visouse cycle....... but maybe we will just fight froever or until one of us dies. and if this fighting ocntinues at the extent that it use to i will start bad habbits again. and if that happens a cute boy with feerce green eyes, chick pants and the smile that makes me weak at the knees willbe upset because it is he who got me threwt this nightmare. and i dk ill try my best to be strong and ill just love that boy with all my hate....