so i've been thinking lately and ive decided that yes i hate my father but as some of you may no that he has heart problems and has had 4 heartatacks and 2 strokes so if he has one more he will likely die... and well i finally told someone tonight that he was having problems again... and is probly going to die.. i dontknow when i could be a year or two from now but if these problems continue he will die. bc you cant have 5 heart attacks and live or 3 strokes i just dosnt happen and so ive decided that yes i still hate him which to people reading this you are going to think i am the most terrible person ever but if you lived the last 5 or 6 years of my life you would feel the same.. but im going to start being nicer to him bc yes i may hate him but i dont want him to die thinking i do... because how terrible would youfeel if you died knowing your daughter hated you. im going to try my hardest to not show that i hate him but i still wont beable to bring myself to say that i love him when he says it... i just cant i cant forgive him and i will never forget but I DONT WANT HIM TO DIE THINKING I HATE HIM.