i wish those words you used that night werent a bunch of melisous lies. and that you acutally had a heart or well knew how to use it. becuase of you i question every word a boy just as much utters to me. i wish those words were full of truth and hopefulness. i wish they would have made you bite your toungue so it soaked your shirt. i wish those words some how would get thrown in your face. just as mine were to me. but yours were more harsh than anything i could have ever thought would come from those lip. you a lush and yet you had me hanging on every word you slurred through your teeth. how you did it i will never know. i wish that those words didnt stick in my head so much. that those words didnt hurt me so. i wish i could just forget those words but for some reason i cant. i wish those words had no meaning in my head or my heart. its heartwrenching to try and convince my self that im the idiot. because i acutally truely feel things. you cant pretend to feel if you look down your nose at it. and for some reason. i wish for more of your words bc then at least i wouldnt feel like a complete loss. and the thing that hurts the most is not only did you lie to me with your words but you eyes lied too. the truth doesnt lay in your lies.