due to the coaxing of sarah, i have created this diary. i guess its not completely useless to have a diary that only a couple of people will read. oh well. being cynical is not so bad after all, especially if what you believe is not only true, but you can control it, like a video game. ratman ralph is the best. today was kind of a wierd day. i did nothing for the whole day, except for talk on the phone with my best bud, but i still had dishes to be done. i dont know. sometimes what turns out to be beautiful can actually turn out to be a plane carwheeling out of control into the side of a mountain. oh well. im freezing my butt off. maybe i should turn off my fan. until next time..... -jason