"shields at half power captain" this has been a long journey. and the sad this is, i dont know where im going. this is a wierd time in my life. not much to look foward to, not much to fear, not much to wake up to, but not enough energy to care. but yet part of me thinks i should see where this could go. and yet part of me thinks im just another guy. a friend. again. these thoughts just keep going through my head like the flight of a butterfly, end over wobbly end. i think im overthinking everything. is there somthing wrong with me? or is it just my outlook? my head feels like a martini shaker. oy gavulta.