how do you get someone who barely knows you to start noticing you? i have toiled over this question for the past few weeks. its so hard. god life is confusing right now. ive got an aching in my soul like no other. my heart flutters at the very mention. ///happiness>>>> and along with happniness comes withdrawal. every spare moment that is not spent is fretted away on thinking about her. i cant help it. if feels so....so natural. its as though my consiousness has been cast adrift in an eternal sea, and i am finally seeing a lighthouse. but then again, it just might be the moon reflecting off the deep purple of the nighttime sea, or some far away star, on the edge of the horizon, fluttiering through its solar system, lightyears away. but for every one second spent on thinking about what could be, three are wasted thinking that this could be a nag on a foreign shore, luring me to the shallow waters so the scalliwags can gut me. oh life is so curious. i suppose the old addage is true, patience is a virtue. but not knowing what she thinks is the worse than the hottest fires and sharpest spears in hell. put out this fire inside me