study hall is excruciatingly boring. especially with nothing but the internet to keep me entertained. they block all the good sites. censorship is like bullying, only less bad, and on a more retrospective level. i feel so distanced from everything. i feel nothing. im becoming detatched from everything and everyone that i love, and its pretty devastating. emotions mean nothing. what is wrong with me? do i just not get it? snow blankets the ground in sheets of bright beauty, but the world is still dark to these eyes. I need to find the lantern to guide me through the twilight. lifeless