have you ever realized it takes a while to realize stuff? no? wait. youll see it. like how the work day goes by quicker and isnt that hard anymore. or how i have come to realize that stuff usually doesnt go my way. but anyway, enough with small talk. i am lonely. much lonlier than before. but im too tired to care. i feel like every single person i care for is slipping through my fingers and my work is consuming me. i really miss the old days. when i had someth1ing to look foward to when i woke up.