its really rare that I'm on the computer and not listening to music.... >.> yes... depressing thoughts, emotional rollercoasters, gotta love em >.> and the worst thing is, i don't even know why.... I don't feel like saying much, maybe i'll edit this post later on, but here's a piece I wrote out of desperation last night. ---------------------------------------------------------- ENDLESS RAIN 7/1/06 The rain continuously falls where I live, I'll stare at the outside world Through a small hole in the wall, Imprisoned by inescapable walls. I'll wait and wait for someone to come, though I know deep down inside that no one will, But I'll hang onto an eroding thread of hope, Thinking that all wishes will come true one day. I'm alone, isolated, forgotten. I have long since left the destructive realm of materialism, Only to step into the unforgiving world of relationships; Now I crave not to own objects, but to interact. And yet, my addiction cannot be fulfilled; For I am eternally trapped, Surrounded by four relentless sentinels, Waiting for my inevitable submission. I'll bang on the walls and scream, I'll turn in circles and collapse onto myself, Bound and crushed by unforgiving chains That cut into me yet shows no marks. So here I am, Looking through my hole at the endless rain, Waiting for a person to come, Anyone, just anyone.... I'll sleep, hoping that the next morning Things will change, But any fire will eventually burn itself out, Leaving smouldering ashes to be scattered by the wind.