i wanted to leave the previous post up as long as possible so that people knew how i felt. I think im gonna change its name because it was, i think, my most emotional and personal post ever. i guess i was just hoping it would me to somebody else wat it means to me. well me and austin finally figured out why i was so hyper for a couple days after my trip. sexual denial lol. got so much in a week i had nowhere to put all that excess energy...kinda freaky if u ask me. I still miss club med and every night before i go to bed i look through my photo album then take a long stare at my favorite picture that i left on the wall next to my computer. its a bit shiny but i like it. ive decided to limit my tellings of my life on this to interesting/important things only. ... ok so not much important things have happened, but of interesting i started baseball last week and we should be heading out to the field this week if it dries up. I'm one of the 2 seniors on the team so im pretty sure that this year ill get some sorta award hopefully. It'd be the first time and probably the only sport in which im gonna get an award. I might even the a sportsman guild's tie :) Grad's coming upin just over a month. i dont know when to get my tux and watnot but i want one and my dad wants me to use one of the family ones, doesnt sound too thrilling. He said he might just get me my own for ever which would be cool, but i feel like im still growing (god i hope so) im only bout 5'11, kinda short for a guy i find. i always wanted to be bout 6' at least. I just finished my 2000 word essay on misogyny in Hamlet. Im quite proud cuz its only due tuesday and its sunday right now. My dad's editing the first draft as we speak, hopefully it wont be horseshit. I feel inspired now so let me inspire you: dont take for granted the time you have right now with your friends because before you know it, they'll all be gone back to their homecountry and/or to a new school next year. Kinda depressing yes, but its a step in the right direction....right?