ok so ive realised something right about now. The girl that i'm currently hooking up with on the weekends, well a relationship with her could never work for the sole fact that we have never discussed it or joked around about it afterwards. in fact we have NEVER talked about it sober, we just ignore it and pretend like it never happened. and even though things are not awkward, it just makes things even MORE AWKWARD...gah. i realised all this while i was looking at a pic of this other girl who i realised that had she not left, i might have ended up dating her because she's so chill and we have great conversations and DO talk about when we did hook up. its awesome. FUCK why do ppl only realise this stuff when its way too late. man like this otehr girl's gone but she's coming back to visit for a week, does that mean i might have another shot at it? but at what? she's only here for a week, there's not much of a chance of a relationship developing from that. fuck man how do i never see this kinda stuff. its these chill girls who can joke around about hooking up afterwards who are the cool ones to date, not the ones who wont talk about it when they're not drunk! man this is shit. well at least i know for the next time i randomly hook up with a girl, talk about it, get it into the open...and fast, but some girls i'd guess dont like that. man this is bullshit, the girl who i like is 6000km away in canada, and the girl who i'm hooking up with, wont acknowledge it when we're not drunk. man ive gotta figure something out.