yeah im lazy. so what? yeah ok i said id write every day, i lied unknowingly, sorry. I force myself to try to write as much as possible, which only seems to be when its late at night and im tired and kno i should be in bed, but am not. Ill probably end up using this as an outlet: somewhere to vent. Hopefully not, but realisticly so. So how are u? I'm just fine. I didnt do much tonite, i went to a huge party dec 30 so 31st was a recovery nite. Last nite got real awkward real fast. Two girls i've been with showed up, neither one knowing the other, only unexpectedly running into me at this party. It was, how u say....interesting? yeah thats it. interesting. i got smashed (shocker :O) and yeah crashed at BDB's, waking up at 8 to watch him leave to go work (that crazy fool) and i stayed and slept there till noon lol. Good thing his mom's nice. But yeah back to the party. One of the girls i saw there was quite something. I hooked up with her almost a year ago, and it was quite something. Great kisser she was, but that was then, and i got shut down now. Nobody mentioned to me how she was now "kinda" seeing some1. Sucks to be me i guess eh? People ask, how's life, and i dont really know how to answer. I just got accepted into a great school for next year and my marks are ok. But socially? well socially I'm a train wreck. I've got no gf, havent hooked up with a girl in WAY too long. These weird thoughts/dreams start poping up more and more often in my head and they scare me. Something needs to happen and fast. My parents rented a chalet in Killington, VT for 4 days so ill be leaving tmr till wednesday for a nice ski vacation. I'm hoping that'll do me some good. The odds of actually meeting some1 on the ski hill are VERY few, but the skiing itself will destract me enough hopefully. I've gotta get started on my hmwk, vacations aren't long enough and it buggs me to hear my cegep friends rambling on about how they still have like a month of vacation left and still end like a month before me in the summer. That sucks, but they dont get ped days, which i'd sacrifice for the greater good of HUGE vacation time. Is there anybody out there, reading my life though my own mind's eye....