ok i dont know if im actually feeling bipolar, but the word always reminds me of ricki, and today was a day that reminds me of ricki. it's been 3 months since the last day of pre-kamp, the day we hooked up for the first time in Torpedo Junction (cabin at kamp) and got together. its also been one month since i had that party where was the last time we had sex. wow thats kinda sad that i know that, tisk tisk. oh well. ive always been a sad soul. i started planning things too much again, like before i started seriously hanging out with jill, before she like psycologically slapped me smart and got my off my scheduling. i used to schedule everything from breathing to time for eating and all that stupid stuff. anywho i started doing it again, greg called me on it and so ive stopped since then. So anywho it's been really weird. there are sooo many girls here and im like flipping out cuz i cant get over the amount of girls here. ok i know this is kinda random, but my friend cass and i now call me a slut: ive hooked up with 3 girls in the past week and a day. ok so last saturday, and i dont really remember it, but somebody told me it...it was just like a little bit of kissing while dancing, nothing serious (obviously cuz if it was really important i woulda remembered), then the next friday i hooked up with another girl, she's pretty cool and it was just a one time thing which is good cuz i dont think im ready for a relationship yet. Note to self: she was my first blonde lol. anywho the next night i hooked up with another girl and i was more drunk then the previous night and we were playing pool and if she won she got a drink, if i wont i got a kiss. well i won and halfway through making out she stopped me and was like "this never happend right" and i was like "oh of course not" and it was really hot so we then just continued in our corner, and it was funny cuz only one person knows cuz she's the only one that i trusted with said info. ill prob tell my roomy in a bit when it wont be so recent anymore. i went out and bought a laptop soft case and its really nice and i bought some post-cards cuz its my parents 20th anniversary oct 12 so i figured ill send them a card and such. you know, be a good son from a foriegn country. anywho i should probably do some work now, i hafta go out for elise's birthdya dinner at 6:45, i hope they dont kick me out too soon.