I AM SO FUCKIN PISSED OFF, u have no idea, pissed off and sad, like almost in fuckin tears, i just don't know what to fuckin do anymore, im just livin my life now and FUCK, just when i think shit is ,omf i dont fuckin no, im so fuckin happy school is almost out, and i cant fuckin wait until summer,at least now i hang out with sumone who doesnt think im JUST LIKE THEM,FUCK, and i wont make them hate themselves, i guess im a fuckin awful friend, and besides that, i fuckin got over seth and saul and there lil posse out there, oh fuck i used that word, i must be trying to be like sara, yah 7 years is a a long fuckin time, u think i dont fuckin cry when i look at old stuff of ours, i cancel my fuckin tutoring cuz brandis gonna be there, i feel so fuckin awkward around u too, u dont fuckin laugh at anything with me,i dont no whta fuckin happened, i guess u and brandi needed each other,like i needed nu friends.AND WHY WOULDNT I TELL U ABOUT CUTTING?people just dont come out and say that,friend or fuckin not, yah i told mike and ju, they live across the fuckin country, what r they gonna do send in a fuckin mental help doctor after me and lock me the fuck up.thats where i lost ur trust ,u should have fuckin asked me.Ur a completley different person,sorry that i fuckin sound like kim, but thats how i feel, i feel like ur like 25 and im 10, thats how much our age difference feels like to me.I cant stand thinkin about u, cuz i get so fuckin pissed off or i cry.Have a nice summer,in csi, with kim,with brandi, and i will too,campin, in halifax, in the fucked up valley,in mahone bay with jay.I took oceans to be with u, but i guess it dont fuckin matter, u have kim anywayz, u spend more time with kim now for sum fucked reason, not that i care, i think irs good that u guys are bein better friends.U talk about ur family all the time, i feel like kathy and my fuckin father are on the edge of a fuckin divorce and there is nothing i can do to stop it.Kathy says that shes never happy and i no its cuz my father is never fuckin helpin,and hes so fuckin selfish.When u talk on the phone to kathy about me and jayson it makes me feel fuckin lovely,its like ur against me becuase u fuckin talk about me with her and u probably agree with her about everything, not stand up to her,FUCK.U always say ill call u later, as soon as i get off the phone u want the truth, u no what i say, "no u wont, u never do,fuck".You no why im not dealing with this, cuz itll fuck me up more if i do.Brandi and u love everything the same, so enjoi