YAY,omg,guess what,i was talkin to jay,for liek 3 hours,lol,hahaha,he had to go for a stealth run-surfing at night,he told me that.so anywayz he scared me so bad last night,he told me he had a kid!then when i told i had been crying,which i had,but not like bawling,he said i never meant to make you cry.and then he was like "Courtney?",and i said what,he said "i dont have a kid",i was liek FUCK YOU.And he told me,nm,shouldnt write that on here.I asked him if he would care if i cheated on him and he was like "YES",lol,and i said hahahaha,funny question.and he said just if you ever do,TELL me,secrets and lies and im done.And omg,he got black tips,put on his blonde hair*drool*,lol,he best be commin back for xmas!!!!!and he likes a clean house too,so we are great together,it seems like im convinced we are gonna be together forever,i just cant see us arguing.and he told me hed never do hard drugs.lol,and i told him,i was like ur just perfect ur everything i cant be,and he said whats that a guy,lol.i was liek yeah. i asked him if hed ever cheat on me and he was like NO,i dont know what it is but i trust him,andhe trusts me,and i know i would be mad if he cheated on me,so i wouldnt do that to him,im not even gonna think about anymore.Xmas 2006,thats gonna be great,i cant wait,grd 11,hope i pass everything,especially math,ill need it where im goin.ill get atutor if not.i just cant wait.my life starts in 2007.