Well i really fucked up,jayson got mad at me for the first time,i told him i would be at the mall,and he walked for 6 hrs to meet me,fuck and then i wanted him to call me and i begged him and then i said the stupidest thing of my life."If you love me"thast was so fuckin stupid,he got so mad and went offline,i just wanted to cry,and then sara read me what he wrote about me and she was screaming at him and i know he can try harder,but no one had ever said anything like that about me.and mykel,yes i do like him,and ive contemplated cheating on jayson,but me and mykel are just close friends.Ill see jayson at xmas,i guess,or next fuckin summer.oh and sara if kathaleen hadnt have told u about my hair u would have found out from my diary,lol.I hope it clues into me how much of a fuckin idiot i am.But someone who says all of that stuff about me,and hasnt even met me,jee,i just cant let go.