It's Sunday, and I didn't go to church today, and I'm more than okay with that. It's so liberating not to be under the pressure of looking like a Christian for them anymore. I've always liked John 8:32, "For you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free." I always thought once I "found God" or whatever I would feel free. But looking back on last semester I am so glad I woke up and managed to shake off that self-imposed Christian prison. Something I've been thinking about lately is how whatever genre of music I'm listening to can tell me what mood I'm in. Country means I'm overall happy and content. Or homesick in some instances. Rock means I'm sad or unsatisfied with things as they are. Classical means I've got an audition coming up, or I'm feeling in love with Blitzen at the moment. Christian ... I don't listen to much anymore, though I did acquire quite a playlist last semester. It makes me sad to listen to it now though. Brian says I should still give it a chance, because it's good music too. Right now I should be writing the rest of my paper for Perspectives on American Indians, or reading for music history, but I am still in "yay diary!" mode so I wanted to write again. I know I said it earlier, but writing in my sitD makes me come alive. Once, when I used to be on sitD as [deathbygummibear], I wrote something along the lines of "keeping a diary makes me want to live each day more fully so I have something exciting to write about that night." Writing in a diary makes my life seem interesting, even if it's not, because if I cared enough about it to write it down, it's worth something to me, and that's all that counts.