mocktails and MSO

by indeliblecello
Feeling: spirited
I don't know if I'm going to make it through these next three weeks. I keep telling myself it's just three weeks; that's almost the only thing that keeps me going. I have so much to do. Today we finally managed to get together for our mocktail party. At around 17:00, Kimberly and I went to Katie's apartment, where we met up with Katie, Cassandra and Juwon. We made strawberry daiquiris and pina coladas. We took a lot of silly pictures and a crazy video. I had refreezable plastic ice cubes, and we ended up having an ice cube fight with them. Katie took video of it; hopefully she puts it up on Facebook. :) I had MSO rehearsal tonight for the Quarry concert next weekend. I love the music and the musicians, and getting paid is always a perk, but I don't know if I like where MSO is going next year. I don't agree with some of the choices whoever's in charge has made, and part of me wants to leave because of them. I don't know. It's like what Mr. Gitch said about Varsity Orchestra all those years ago: "We play because we can't imagine not playing." I feel like who I am, the self at my core, is diminished somehow if I'm not involved in an orchestra. Just thinking about dropping out of MSO is painful. I miss chamber music as well, like Dinner Ensemble and being in a quartet or a trio. I love being the spine of a small group like that. I remember one time at St. Olaf, we had quartet rehearsal at 22:00 on a Thursday, which was my hardest and longest day, and all I could do was bitch about having to be there. What's wrong with complaining about one rehearsal, when you have three more years of countless rehearsals left, with the same people, same place, same coach? I wonder what I would have done, had I known that would not be the case. It seems to be a trend with me; I always regret not living in the moment. So let this be a reminder to myself and anyone else who may read this:
Live now. This is it.
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Thanks for the comment I guess I will see what happens I am a long way from home right now so now its mostly time that hinders me
Hey :-) ..so, do I think God could give you a dream that you weren't capable of reaching, but use it to in fact teach you something else. Well.. I can see that point, but first of all.. my opinion would be that the only thing to stop you from reaching a dream is yourself. A dream (and a destiny even) is something you are most passionate and enthusiastic about - in essence, the lifeblood of your existence.
If you aren't as passionate or enthusiastic about that dream as you thought you were, then continuing to pursue it will only be a journey that fails to reward you spiritually (in terms of happiness). Another reason why we may not reach a dream is because we become hesitant. We must learn to have faith in our potential (like I say, we don't have dreams if we don't have the abilities to achieve them). The more hesitant we are, the less
likely we are to achieve our dreams. Life is a journey and it will take a fair while for someone to find just what their dream in life is. Some people don't ever find that dream and lead a mediocre life and for some even, a life of bad deeds. In a right environment, it's never too late for them to unlock their dream to find out who they are and what they're meant to be in life. But will God ever steer us a different way to what we actually
thought our dream was? Well, I think he could yes. I think God would only do so though in our best interests. We should have faith in that what he does for us is to only make us stronger and lead a better life - the choice is up to us to believe whether that is actually what he is doing. The faithful will believe, the lesser will question. However, keep thinking through it.. believe in what God has in store for you.
Sometimes in life we as a human have a dream, but there are not always the resources for us to actually achieve that dream. So we find a new way - there is always a way! I want to change the World by helping refreshen and nurture the spiritual side of people from an aspect of love. My dream was to always be a racing driver.. but I couldn't do that for lack of money. Now as life would have it.. I have an interest in what we call snooker.
I still don't know what the exact way will be that life works out for me. But if you have a dream and a route to achieve it.. then believe nothing other than you have the potential to go down that route, because more than believing in yourself, you too will be believing in God if you ask him to guide you. "A dream becomes you only if you believe".
I hope that helps. Just believe (and the faith that you have will help immensely) that if you have a dream.. you can reach it!