Hey...its been a while and i know. But i needed some time to think some things thru. Cuz im a fucking idiot and i dont ever see the things that are going on around me until they are spelled out to me. but im over it. I dont fucking care about him anymore. Ive got Zach and i love him with all that is left of me. i guess i should get to know my dudes before i get all lovey dovey.because im easy...im just a loving person and when some one tells me they love me i just melt and get all warm inside. then they break my heart and it feels like i cant go on. But i realize that they wernt good enough for me. And then i deserve better, like Zach. And he makes me feel so good. Because we can talk. i feel that i can go to him when ever i have a problem and he makes it all better. He's more understanding and that is why i love him. And i hope that we will stay together forever.