yall i just got dumped today by a guy that i felt that i could spend the rest of my life with. yeah yeah he lives in indiana and im in Nc but it was all on his parents...they told him he had to. which really pisses me off because he will be 19 the 21st of this month and his 15 yr old sister gets more then him. they treat like like a 13 yr old. its all bull shit. so i dunno what im going to do. he made me feel so good about my self. i so didnt expect this at all. i cant eat...and i cant get that look that he had out of my mind. and hearing him cry on the phone made me feel like shit. it made me feel like killing some one. QUESTION: WHAT IS MY PURPOSE ON THIS EARTH? id really like to know. because whenever i find something that makes me happy something bad happens and i lose it. i cant stand this anymore. i lost Zach and now Daniel. I will get Daniel back. he didnt break up with me due to lack of interest like Zach did. When i graduate high school im moving, and i will get back with Daniel. i will...and im sure he would love that. I try to talk to some one about it...and they leave me. I cant ever talk to any one about how im feeling but they always come to me with their problems but when it comes to me they cant stay and listen because they have too much to do. so i build it all up and then when something major like this happens i lose control and i think of morbid plans to killing my self but first the people that hurt me. well i quit with this writing shit down for tonight because i have ran out of tears.