feeling the wind how can it blow so cold? redeeming myself from what you said how can you be so bold? recalling the empty promises what is there to remember? not wanting to be like you how can I surrender? the taste if victory was so close how can it be so sweet? trapped... how can all this come from one defeat? I long for this to be over how did I ever smile? needing the light in the tunned if darkness can I hold on for a little while? thinking of this can I get it out of my head? got to let it all go am I better off dead? take this knife to my wrist kill everything about you that I will never miss I lived for you, I cried for you and now I am going to die for you you see me smile when all I do is frown wishing I can stop this rain from falling down now I just need this all to end this blade is my only friend always there when I need to erase my pain never looking for something to gain never laughed when I scremed out my fears loved the shed of blood for every tear suffering has left my heart black with no desire to get the light back as I watch my life trickle down to the floor thinking this is how to even the score victory was theirs but I realized too late this knife on my neck decided my fate. I am so upset because this kid that I am in like love with is so mad at me he won't talk to me. hes like my best friend and we haven't talked in like a month and I really miss him more than anything in the world. I just don't know what to do. I wrote these poems about how I feel. but I'm not suicidal or anything. it just tied. leave opinions about everything and a little help please.