My hair is currently ORANGE!! Enough said.. But yea. I have so much studying to do tonight due to my 1000 tests tomorrow. I have been rahter sad lately and I have no idea why and its driving me crazy. Theres a lot of things wrong in my life, some in which I have mentioned. Like the obsessive talk about my sister! Its getting so old. It makes me feel like I am nothing to this family. All they care about is my sisters rehab. I don't know where I belong anymore. Its like I have no friends, I never really realized that til today. I sit with one person in lunch, I don't walk with anyone in the halls, and don't talk to anyone in any of my classes with the acception of Katey and the people in my French II class. I have a lot of aquaintin.. (yes, I can't spell that) but no one I can consider a friend. It even seems like Kyle comes over now just so I can help her with her homework. And to top it all off, I don't think I am going to Homecoming anymore because Cory won't give the permission slip to me. So I spent $50 for a dress and shoes and nowhere to wear it to. It kind of sucks. I am so conserned about his 'problem' that I cried over it. Like it scares me that people can be like that. Like its a well known fact that I care about him a lot. But I don't know how long I can keep caring for him like this if he doesn't feel anything back. I have been so emotionless lately. Very confused and lost on where GOD wants me to go in life. I have faith that HE has a path for me but right now I don't know where He wants me to go. I have to put my faith in HIM and trust that HE will lead me to where I am meant to be. Maybe I am supposed to help Cory, and to help my sister with her anger towards everyone. I think I have to pray. *sigh*