You know you really care when you have to try and convince yourself that you don't. It's like when you meet a person who is just what you've always wanted... its when you meet that person who enjoys doing everything that you enjoy.. and who can stump and interest you.. and stimulate you... its that person who makes you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.. its like meeting that person.. and telling yourself that you wont fall in love with them.. that one way or another you'll keep your heart in some gigantic box in your chest and not allow it to feel a damn thing until you say its okay... lets not fool ourselves.. emotions.. all of them.. are uncontrollable.. you cant keep yourself from crying.. just like you cant stop yourself from falling in love.. and like you cant stop someone from falling out of love.. it happens.. it occurs.. and it sucks 9 lasts -- 9.] last place you were: school 8.] last cigarette: never 7.] last beverage: coffee 6.] last movie watched: addams family 5.] last phone call: josh.. 4.] last cd played: hellogoodbye 3.] last BUBBLE bath: idk awhile. 2.] last time you cried: last night.. so confused. 1.] last alcohol drink: nope 8 have you evers -- 8.] have you ever dated someone twice: no 7.] have you ever cheated on someone: no 6.] have you ever kissed someone: yes 5.] have you ever kissed someone you regret: no 4.] have you ever fallen in love: yes 3.] have you ever lost someone: yes 2.] have you ever been depressed: yes 1.] have you ever been drunk and thrown up: no 7 things you've done today -- 1.] woke up 2.] showered 3.] school 4.] ate 5.] homework 6.] hung w/ josh 7.] got online 5 people you care about -- 1.] nicole 2.] dustin 3.] Stacey 4.] seth 5.] lisa 4 people you can tell pretty much anything to -- 1.] nicole 2.] stacey 3.] dustin 4.] Seth 3 favorite colors -- 1.] lime green 2.] yellow 3.] teal 2 things you ate today -- 1.] toaster strudel 2.] cookies. 1 thing you want to do before you die -- 1.] see the northern lights So Far in '06 I have: [x] been to school [x] made a new friend [] fallen out of love [x] done something you swore never to do [x] lied [x] laughed until you cried [ ] stole something [x] went behind your parents back [] cried over an ex [x]disappointed someone close [x] hidden a secret [x] pretended to be happy [] got arrested [] kept your new years resolution [x] forgot your new years resolution [x] met someone who changed your life [x] changed your outlook on life [x] sat home all day doing nothing [] pretended to be sick [] almost died [] drank [ ] lost someone [ ] been to the hospital [x] gotten close to someone [] streaked [x] cried over someone [] broken up with a gf or bf [] given up something important to you [x] talked online all night [x] learned something new about yourself [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try [x] found out who your true friends were [x] made a total fool of yourself [x] met great people [x] kissed someone Q 01: is there a person who is on your mind right now? A 01: yes Q 02: where is the last place you went? A 02: school Q 03: who is the last person you called? A 03: josh Q 04: who do you like more, your mom or dad? A 04: mom..? Q 05: do you have any siblings? A 05: yea Q 06: do you smile often? A 06: yea Q 07: do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? A 07: i hope. Q 08: do you wish on stars? A 08: sometimes Q 09: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? A 09: no Q 10: when did you last cry? A 10: last night. didnt they already ask that? Q 11: do you like your handwriting? A 11: its okay Q 12: are you a friendly person? A 12: yea Q 13: who's bed did you sleep in last night? A 13: mine Q 14: what color shirt are you wearing? A 14: blue Q 15: do you have any pets? A 15: yes Q 16: what is the color of your bedsheets? A 16: white and polka dots Q 17: What were you doing at 9 last night? A 17: talking online.. Q 18: i can't wait until.. A 18: i turn 18... christmas.. summer. Q 19: is tom on your friends list? A 19: no Q 20: look to your right. what's there? A 20: bed. Q 22: ever cried yourself to sleep? A 22: yes Q 23: ever cried on your friend's shoulder? A 23: no Q 24: song that makes you cry? A 24: ummm... idk Q 25: are you normally a happy person? A 25: yes Q 26: has anyone ever said 'i love you' to you? A 26: yes Q 27: is your self-esteem extremely low? A 27: nah