i wish i knew what lackadaisical means....god damn it this sucks..i dont have a partner for darien lake so i might not be able to go.. i was supposed to go with walker and he said he was going with me but then chance told mrs. melluzo that he was going with walker....so idk what to do. matt leaves like...soon i wanna spend the whole day with him at darien lake but kim will get mad at me but that it like....before he leaves i mean omfg he is moving to hawaii and some ppl have the nerve to tell me to get over it!! it pisses me off...you know what else pisses me off?? the entrys that kayla has in her diary about her mom ...(kaykay13) it is a shame that she tredats her mom like that...but yea...i have a game tonight in northeast...i swear if wendy sits me out i am gana be pissed..she has sat me out like the past 3 games...it isnt even fair...but i know she will take me out and put allyssa on 3rd...she isnt that good and it blows my mind that she even puts her there...but w/e i am gana have to get over it..i might go to rocky's tommorow if my mom lets me...most likely she will b/c i begged her in a letter i typed her last night it was like 4 paragraphs telling her why i think she should let me go. the i the end i was like please mom i am BEGGING you let me go to rocky's this one time PLEASE...gosh i hope she lets me go.. i will like be so mad i fshe wont i should of put in it would you rather me be outside having a good time with my friends for once or inside by myself cutting myself? you choose....damn i should have..she would have let me go then...hopefully she will most likely she will...but i am gana go look at other diarys and crap please comment!!!!!!!