Weakness. I strongly dislike it. Those that need things to feel better, other than themselves. Using foreign substances does not constitute being strong. When one has resistance to one of those things, it's a clear indication that you are a strong person and shouldn't take those things. Your body obviously does not relish the invasion of its ground and thus tries to fight it. Instead, you overwhelm its defenses by inundating yourself with depressants, and your body hurts. All in the name of being of age. Was it worth it? All this happened already, you've lost any meaning it might have had by the past. It's just another day. What difference does it make, whether it's that one or another. It's all the same. There is no value, no worth.